Went to Aloha Loyang Resort yesterday for class chalet...yea..and hmm..just reached home..it's 6.40pm now...i went for 2d1n only..and I'm very sad. Anyways...met peg, linda, hanny, ph and tys at Jurong East MRT den take a train down to Pasir Ris..den took bus 345 from Pasir Ris interchange to Aloha Resort..hmm..the chalet there is the best I've seen so far...the facilities there are excellent..I mean in the chalet itself..dere are cutleries...water boiler..microwave oven..hmm..ice cooler refrigerator..u know the one which looks like a washnig-machine..yea..and a HUGE fridge..and there are 4 rooms...each with air-con..and the air-con is not those lao kok kok type..and the toilet is quite clean..not bad at all..hahaz..and hmm..it was actually mr loh who booked the chalet for us..and hmm..2 female teachers went too..not gonna say who..and erm..yea..Wanyu..linda and I helped out to prepare the food for the BBQ on the first night...took us the whole day k..we made salad..washed the chicken wings..prepared satay..washed those hotdogs, crabmeats, corns, potato...den wrapped some of them in aluminium foil..and prepare the drinks and desserts...it was tiring but fun..I love it..hmm..I think I was the earliest to sleep yesterday cos I was really really tired..somemore the bed was so comfortable..hahaz..I couldn't stay for 3d2n..and I'm v affected by it..and duh..little did I expect that one day..I could feel so SIAN towards band..this is like one of the rare times I feel so bored..I reached dere with bernice..yuanny and hanny around 12.20pm..we came from pasir ris of course..yea and I thought 12.30pm den we fall in..den when I was at the gate I saw that everyone was ALREADY in the squat..I was like..wad the hell..I thought 12.30pm...den mrs loh asked me why was I late..I told her I got the time wrong..so she sorta excused us..after that I felt like I was a fool cos I could even get the time wrong..I don't know whether I am late or the band started early..wadever..I didn't wish to know...so we did the marking of attendance...this is the part where I was SO PISSED OFF. I was like..wads the problem with everyone...do we always have to repeat wad we do tons of times..im VERY fed up already..I really am..and I am tired. I am sick of doing the same things over and over again...im one of the pioneers to this band..seeing it fall really hurts...I wish I could have the power to turn things around..but I don't have the power to do so..and guess wad..my homework is not done and teachers demand it tomorrow and thursday..and WADS MORE...band camp starts tomorrow..means that tomorrow night I won't be at home..wad the heck..I have to balance my studies and the band..sometimes I feel that I give up 2 much..today mr ong gave us sectionals at the gymnasium..and to those people who did the wrong stuffs...I think it is time u guys wake up ur damn idea. Yes ur damn idea. Chatting with friends won't get you a medal. Combining with your friends won't get you a medal...so please wake up!!!! Don't pull down the band just because of your insolence. And sometimes I wonder whether im too friendly. When I set my message..it seems that it just goes in and out of my members mnd. The next time my message is not carried out..I will not tolerate. Today I focused on only 5 clarinets cos I needed the private time to coach dem so that they r more aware of their mistakes..and the rest of them..I said..practice yourself..and LIKE HELL they did wad I said. Is it SO difficult to practice themselves...do they need to be fed..do i need to bring the food right to their mouth and say open your mouth and close your mouth and chew your food and swallow it down?? This is the problem with Singaporeans..they are 2 obedient. And..after we finished our stuffs in the gym..people carried their instruments back to keep and being SO HELPFUL most just stood outside the career guidance room. People PLEASE SHOW SOME INITIATIVE. Most of u could have help the percussions and we could all be seated by 5.55pm in the band room. And we could have saved mr ong from feeling so disappointed. Im not asking much..but band members you are really taking advantage of everything. From the next practice onwards..I WILL EXCERCISE MY AUTHORITY. Anyway when I reached home..my ears were not spared..after feeling so disappointed with band my mum adds in salt and pepper to garnish my disappointment. So I just kept quiet...I have nothing more to say...after 3 weeks we will go for the SYF competition..given the condition we are in now..I am really sorry to say..we are only worth a piece of paper. The COP paper. If I receive that as my medal..I might as well regard it as if I nv joined the band..because I don't invest my time in things that are redundant. I think it's really pointless. Band starts tomorrow again..I hope to see improvements...and I will be strict..I don't care if I injure any friendships..I don't care how people see me..I don't care for any more feelings. I only care for the medal. Yes I am selfish and proud..but if i get wad I want..i will be more den happy...and I mean wad I say.